07 / 10 / 2018
It's October! The spoopy month. The transitioning month (i almost wrote moth, a meme) bewteen the 3rd and 4th bimester. It's a disaster. All the assignmets left for the end of the bimester are messing with my head. I think i'm done with most of the homework. I definitely believe i should be more concerned with my grades, they won't be as good; they might even be the worst in years.
I'm also in Cepu. The first weeks were tough, now it's tolerable. My mind is in another place in classes. I don't think i'll be in the first 10 places, I'm barely studying. Hopefully, i get an epifany or some shit that gets me motivated.

Yesterday i tried of the dumbest things ever. I'm aware of my sleeping habits. I know that if I sleep earlier i will dream. I tried to figure out something. Can i control what i dream? I decided to start by touching myself a little and looking at a Miguel (a very hot one) picture, to get turned on. I thought I would finally have a dream where I become his whore; sadly, that didn't happen. A dream feels so real. If I'm not able to get in bed with him at least i'll try it in my imagination.

I'm going to continue trying. I need to have sex with him. I need the comfort and know what it feels like. Talking about him, I don't feel nearly as attracted as i were 2 weeks ago. You can say that it is dissipating. I still want him to fuck me.

Important things that happened this month?

The very first day, I revealed myself to a friend. Honestly, i didn't know that to expect. He was so fucking kind and supportive. It's been of the best things i've done. Now, we are very close and talk to each other every day, not only about the sex stuff, but also about our lives.

I became friends with a dude named "adrian". I had a way off opinion about him. NEVER would i have thought about him being 22. He attitude was too similar to a 16 year old. Now that i know, i just play it cool and act as if i didn't have any problems. Although ,there is one problem; his emotional matureness is hot. In looks he is a maybe, in thinking he is such a huge turn on.

I was reading the past blogs and i noticed I've never what I like about guys. All of this are the most possible features that i can see in my city.
Let's start by the body. A guy has to be tall, he must be tall. I can't date smaller people. It's not my cup of tea. I like strong guys, or at least thicker guys than me. I don't really care about the skin color. I have a preference for yellow-gold skin. They don't need to have abs. They must have broad shoulders (for their body). Somewhat thick arms (veinys are even better). Fit t-shirts are welcome, too.
I would pick wavy and curly hair rather than straight hair. Straight hair looks boring. The hair color is not important. A large forehead looks bad. Perfect noses are perfect, but raw ones are good, too.They just have to be straight. The cheekbones really depend on the person face structure, but personally I like slim cheekbones. I'm very special with eyes. They pupil has to be in line with the eyelids. The eyelashes have to be large and thick. The color does not matter. Red lips are the best. Thick and cared eyebrows. Teeth, well i'm not too demading with them, as long as I can look at them without feeling unconfortable, i'm fine. Jawlines are my favorite part of men, along with beards.  There are so many different jawlines. Sometimes a good jawline is enough to make me like them. A perfect jawline with a beard gets me lost, for real. Makes me ask them for more.

There's a new dude that I like. He is the first younger guy (age) that I've liked. His last names is better, so we won't be calling him by his name (no pun intended).
I like cortez from 4th. I don't know much about him. Besides, his latest photos are from fricking 2016, I like him a lot. I don't care what anyone says. It's helping me to move on from Miguel.
God, I hate being a horny teenager.